nothing and something

now that i know that there are three people who read this thing, i feel compelled to feel compelled to write here. you know by now that everything's second-order with me.

rainstorms on a full moon tonight. two phenomena i love, cancelling each other out. is there a meaning? well, no -- but i'll whip one up.

look here: it's the zero ontology. i bought into this idea for a while, and still have tendencies. the idea is, the universe is literally nothing. if you're a whack-job quantum theorist, it's a (keyword) little more sensible... the quantum state of the universe being a giant superposition (work with me here) the tensor-product components of which exactly oppose and counterbalance one another. a reified equation that cancels itself out, more or less. we tread down a path -- 'look at this! and this! and turn away from that... look at this!' -- but really, could we see the state of all paths, there's nothing; something being incomplete nothing and nothing being the whole fact.

yeah, dark. but liberating too, in the way rarified nihilism can be. but like all these thought-games, too much is left out (pun intended: shame on you. and, congratulations)... the question, 'why is nothing everything' gets explained 'because everything is nothing', and the question, 'well, why is that?' gets a reflexive 'nothing needs no explanation; you're thinking of something again'. it's a toxic case of begging the question, or you could say, of loading most of your theory into its premise. still, it sparkles, the way miniature theorems in number theory can.

someone asked me if my poems are going to suffer if i start blogging -- getting ideas down and getting prosy when i might be suffering them until they come out as poems. i have two answers to that question.

1) i have a poem that begins:
[Your god isn't as good
as my]
that sits neglected on a corner of my desk.

2) the poems i've written in the past few weeks, though few, make me glad i'm giving this a shot.